Luna de fiere

“I feel I’m filling up with venom, standing on a chair, with blurred senses and a fast beating hearth. I’m so sick of everything, I want to take the fist train out of here, no matter where it leads.”

That was some days ago. I somehow manage to get past some unpleasant situations in my life, but I think it’s best that I avoid them all along. Maybe this will happen as I’m slowly loosening the ropes this life tied me to. Life has both good and bad surprises, but taking them too seriously cuts back a few years of your life. But who’s interested in a long, life, anyway?

I’ve managed now to catch up on my reading, and I don’t have to frown anymore on the street(or anywhere else) to see what’s around me. But these glasses surely are being added to my complexes list.

I miss some of my good times, when I was surrounded by so many people I thought cared. One by one, they left or slowly searched for other companies. But that’s my past, no reason to bring it back now. I think I’m starting to cope with that Shakespearian quote: ‘what’s done is done’. It’s just done, not forgotten or forgiven-It just cannot be changed.

Somehow I don’t know where all this time went. I already find myself near the middle of my university semester, and I haven’t even managed to find a solid ground, although I told myself I was going to work harder now and not let anyone get in the way. The second part is a bit more reliable, as I’m still in the ‘becoming-numb’ state I decided is best for me.

I’ve been postponing this blog entry, as I managed to lose all my ideas from the past time. That plus I’m lazy to write a story I wanted to, based on a song. But we’ll see when I’ll manage to talk myself into this one.

For now it’s bad coffee, head ache and gray clouds in my world. How is your heart doing?

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